It is Monday 23rd April 2018…. just another Monday, although today is the day after my first (and probably last – I know, I should never say never, but…) marathon. Social media is flooded with endless different accounts and emotions from the day and pride at having completed what it is said only 1% of the population will complete. Some now feeling the down after such a high, other’s still riding that high and buzzing from their achievement. I expected that I would fall into one or both of those camps yet I feel rather different. The day has been spent with people desperate to congratulate me or talk about how this marathon, that I’ve gone on about for months, was. Yet I find myself feeling unable to hide my disappointment with a false acceptance of the glory they wish to bestow. So I thought it easiest to write in a bid to try to explain my response! Please stick with it, I know it’s long but it is positive at the end! I promise!
How the marathon came about
Although I am by no means an elite athlete, I do consider myself a runner and, again not an amazingly quick club runner, but I would say I have some half decent times (5k 21:26, 10k 44:44, HM 1:38). I have also done some crazy runs even though not a marathon. I’ve completed the world’s largest obstacle course consisting of 20 miles and 200 obstacles (Rat Race Dirty Weekend), not just once, but twice, finishing in the ladies top 20 on the second time and that being with limited training due to our family circumstances in the lead up. So when I secured myself a ballot place for the London Marathon 2018 I was delighted at the prospect of stepping up to the marathon and it was another running challenge. As a runner, it wasn’t a challenge that I set myself with the goal being completion. I knew I could run and I was confident with the right training I would complete it. But like all my running challenges, it was about how I completed it. Not only that but I had a reason to run big races. In February 2016 my eldest son Isaac, then 9, was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia. His treatment continues until May 2019. We are a family passionate about running and so we decided very early on that we would try to raise as much money as possible through running for 4 children’s cancer charities that we are grateful for and want to give back to over the course of his lengthy treatment. There have been other charities who have also been awesome and supported us too as the journey has continued. So there was also more to how I completed it that just time as it was personal.